Dead flowers

by Jillian Kay

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released June 27, 2015

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Track Name: Fireworks or gunshots
i am awake again and it’s not getting easier
to fall asleep after the sound of footsteps in the entry
someone send me back to the hospital
i am not feeling well
my head is filled with fireworks
or gunshots, who can tell anymore

i don’t want to wake up in the morning
i’m sick of sorting out my life
i want to be the queen of the underworld
because the devil never has to say good night

let’s play a game in the dark with
our open palms and rabbit hearts
i am as sharp as ever
i like you when you’re sad and clever
take off your clothes and i’ll show you where
it hurts me just to look
you are handsome like the hero in my favorite romance book

but all the handsome heroes die wonderfully in the end
if you meet me in my dreams i promise that i will be tender and kind
and i will keep you safe from everybody else
but more importantly, i will keep you safe from myself

i don’t want to wake up in the morning
i’m sick of sorting out my life
i want to be the queen of the underworld
because the devil never has to say good night
Track Name: All talk, no action
killed it with a handful of kisses
and wished him all the best
i said come find me when you need
a chance to catch your breath
what a lovely sentiment it was
pretending to be fine
when he left he took a step back
to say: remember, you were mine

that’s why this could never happen
all talk and no action
i don’t belong to anyone
so you go and find yourself a lover
i will take another
i will think of you when i’m having fun

are you writing poetry
between the lines of oscar wilde
and telling all your friends that i
acted like a spoiled child
remember when we fell asleep
listening to big band swing
you told me, girl, i don’t think
i could love a thing as much as i love you

that’s why this could never happen
all talk and no action
i don’t belong to anyone
so you go and find yourself a lover
i will take another
i will think of you when i’m having fun

why do you say it
if you don't mean it
i don't want it
i don't need it

that’s why this could never happen
all talk and no action
i don’t belong to anyone
so you go and find yourself a lover
i will take another
i will think of you when i’m having fun
Track Name: Nasty things
i’m gonna go outside and sit in the rain
until i feel something again
i don’t blame anyone for who i am today
it’s my fault and i’m glad that it all turned out this way

it’s nice out here with the neighbors gone
laying out on their front lawn
i feel so clean and light
i wonder if they’re coming home tonight

rain rain wash away
all the nasty things i know i should not say
i will never find a home
i will die sad and alone
rain rain wash it all away

i dream that the sky will fall
and the clouds come down and take us all
to a place where no one ever feels insignificant or small

it’s lovely out here shivering
i am soaked to the bone
it’s 3 a.m. and it looks like
the neighbors are never coming home

rain rain wash away
all the nasty things i know i should not say
everything i do is wrong
i hate myself and i hate my songs
rain rain wash it all away

away
away
away
Track Name: Any other way
let’s go for a walk
i know it’s getting dark
i like to hear the cars pass
through your ever nervous heart

it’s just a whisper
but it always seems to say
i am scared as hell but i
have lived another day
and i wouldn’t have it any other way

let’s go for a drive
i know the water’s fine
we can talk to the moon
and beg the stars to shine

it’s just a whisper
but they always seem to say
in all this emptiness
you can find something great
and i wouldn’t have it any other way

it’s just a whisper
but they always seem to say
there is magic in sadness
and you are gonna be okay
and i wouldn’t have it any other way
Track Name: Dead flowers
she’s quick to step and
flip her hair she
will forget if
you were there to
watch her dance to
kiss goodbye
she doesn’t say when
and never why

because she’s always trying to escape
dead flowers taped to clean white pages
she keeps them close to heart
where all good boys and girls
fall apart

she keeps her words
in her head
a copy of the bible beside her bed
she reads it all day
because she wants to know
where all of her innocence will go

because she’s always trying to escape
dead flowers taped to clean white pages
she keeps them close to heart
where all good boys and girls
fall apart
Track Name: Invincible
let's pretend we are young again
got my plastic tiara and imaginary friend
i will push you on the swing
we will wish on all the stars
steal candy from the corner store
and run in front of cars to feel alive
and no, we will never die
we are invincible
you are the prince
i am the girl who's got it all

this could be everything
every love you ever dreamed of
when we were young
everything was fun so
lay with me until the sun
comes
crashing
down

let's hide away on rainy days
make castles out of blankets
play video games
our problems will be simple
we will solve them before dark
won't kiss cause it's gross
but we will feel it in our hearts
we are in love
and if that's all we've got
we are invincible
i am the princess
you are the handsomest boy at the ball

this could be everything
every love you ever dreamed of
when we were young
everything was fun so
lay with me until the sun
comes
crashing
down
Track Name: A long and lovely day
a terrible young man told me to
talk less and smile more
he said that’s what pretty girls are for
light heartedness and nothing more
but i’ve been sad eyes and thick thighs
since i was thirteen and searching for
something to make me feel loved
but that was never enough for me

that will never be good enough for me
that will never be good enough for me

late night on a friday i feel alone
press your number ten times on my telephone
do your parents still
pay for the landline
don’t kiss me here you taste like my chewing gum
you taste just like the moment i’ve been dreaming of
but you will disappoint me
like everybody else does

that will never be good enough for me
you will never be good enough for me
not until i can be good enough for me
i want to be good enough for me

i remember the tennis court before they tore the park down
we played without rackets and it was just a lovely day
i got my first guitar in the evening from my dad who asked
for his cigarettes but knew i would find that great big box
packed into the backseat
and i’m still crying, i was so happy
i’m still crying
it’s all been wonderful
just a long and lovely day
Track Name: You cannot break my heart
through the windshield looking at the stars
streaks of dust and dying bugs, that’s all they are
it’s much too bright in the city, yes i know
but we are here and the gas tank is low, so
find the lyra and the northern cross will start
to sing of all the lovers and all their broken hearts

you can lie
it’s alright on my part
i don’t mind
you cannot break my heart

you can lie
it’s alright on my part
i don’t mind
you cannot see me cry in the dark