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Dead flowers

by Jillian Kay

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1.
i am awake again and it’s not getting easier to fall asleep after the sound of footsteps in the entry someone send me back to the hospital i am not feeling well my head is filled with fireworks or gunshots, who can tell anymore i don’t want to wake up in the morning i’m sick of sorting out my life i want to be the queen of the underworld because the devil never has to say good night let’s play a game in the dark with our open palms and rabbit hearts i am as sharp as ever i like you when you’re sad and clever take off your clothes and i’ll show you where it hurts me just to look you are handsome like the hero in my favorite romance book but all the handsome heroes die wonderfully in the end if you meet me in my dreams i promise that i will be tender and kind and i will keep you safe from everybody else but more importantly, i will keep you safe from myself i don’t want to wake up in the morning i’m sick of sorting out my life i want to be the queen of the underworld because the devil never has to say good night
2.
killed it with a handful of kisses and wished him all the best i said come find me when you need a chance to catch your breath what a lovely sentiment it was pretending to be fine when he left he took a step back to say: remember, you were mine that’s why this could never happen all talk and no action i don’t belong to anyone so you go and find yourself a lover i will take another i will think of you when i’m having fun are you writing poetry between the lines of oscar wilde and telling all your friends that i acted like a spoiled child remember when we fell asleep listening to big band swing you told me, girl, i don’t think i could love a thing as much as i love you that’s why this could never happen all talk and no action i don’t belong to anyone so you go and find yourself a lover i will take another i will think of you when i’m having fun why do you say it if you don't mean it i don't want it i don't need it that’s why this could never happen all talk and no action i don’t belong to anyone so you go and find yourself a lover i will take another i will think of you when i’m having fun
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Nasty things 03:35
i’m gonna go outside and sit in the rain until i feel something again i don’t blame anyone for who i am today it’s my fault and i’m glad that it all turned out this way it’s nice out here with the neighbors gone laying out on their front lawn i feel so clean and light i wonder if they’re coming home tonight rain rain wash away all the nasty things i know i should not say i will never find a home i will die sad and alone rain rain wash it all away i dream that the sky will fall and the clouds come down and take us all to a place where no one ever feels insignificant or small it’s lovely out here shivering i am soaked to the bone it’s 3 a.m. and it looks like the neighbors are never coming home rain rain wash away all the nasty things i know i should not say everything i do is wrong i hate myself and i hate my songs rain rain wash it all away away away away
4.
let’s go for a walk i know it’s getting dark i like to hear the cars pass through your ever nervous heart it’s just a whisper but it always seems to say i am scared as hell but i have lived another day and i wouldn’t have it any other way let’s go for a drive i know the water’s fine we can talk to the moon and beg the stars to shine it’s just a whisper but they always seem to say in all this emptiness you can find something great and i wouldn’t have it any other way it’s just a whisper but they always seem to say there is magic in sadness and you are gonna be okay and i wouldn’t have it any other way
5.
Dead flowers 02:50
she’s quick to step and flip her hair she will forget if you were there to watch her dance to kiss goodbye she doesn’t say when and never why because she’s always trying to escape dead flowers taped to clean white pages she keeps them close to heart where all good boys and girls fall apart she keeps her words in her head a copy of the bible beside her bed she reads it all day because she wants to know where all of her innocence will go because she’s always trying to escape dead flowers taped to clean white pages she keeps them close to heart where all good boys and girls fall apart
6.
Invincible 04:00
let's pretend we are young again got my plastic tiara and imaginary friend i will push you on the swing we will wish on all the stars steal candy from the corner store and run in front of cars to feel alive and no, we will never die we are invincible you are the prince i am the girl who's got it all this could be everything every love you ever dreamed of when we were young everything was fun so lay with me until the sun comes crashing down let's hide away on rainy days make castles out of blankets play video games our problems will be simple we will solve them before dark won't kiss cause it's gross but we will feel it in our hearts we are in love and if that's all we've got we are invincible i am the princess you are the handsomest boy at the ball this could be everything every love you ever dreamed of when we were young everything was fun so lay with me until the sun comes crashing down
7.
a terrible young man told me to talk less and smile more he said that’s what pretty girls are for light heartedness and nothing more but i’ve been sad eyes and thick thighs since i was thirteen and searching for something to make me feel loved but that was never enough for me that will never be good enough for me that will never be good enough for me late night on a friday i feel alone press your number ten times on my telephone do your parents still pay for the landline don’t kiss me here you taste like my chewing gum you taste just like the moment i’ve been dreaming of but you will disappoint me like everybody else does that will never be good enough for me you will never be good enough for me not until i can be good enough for me i want to be good enough for me i remember the tennis court before they tore the park down we played without rackets and it was just a lovely day i got my first guitar in the evening from my dad who asked for his cigarettes but knew i would find that great big box packed into the backseat and i’m still crying, i was so happy i’m still crying it’s all been wonderful just a long and lovely day
8.
through the windshield looking at the stars streaks of dust and dying bugs, that’s all they are it’s much too bright in the city, yes i know but we are here and the gas tank is low, so find the lyra and the northern cross will start to sing of all the lovers and all their broken hearts you can lie it’s alright on my part i don’t mind you cannot break my heart you can lie it’s alright on my part i don’t mind you cannot see me cry in the dark

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released June 27, 2015

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Jillian Kay Warwick, Rhode Island

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